Neither am I. I was nauseous for all 9.5 months. It never ended. I had false labour at 25 weeks. I got put on reduced exercise. I had terrible heartburn. My baby showed up 10 days late induced. She was 9 pounds 13 oz. I pushed for two hours, she did not come out, so unplanned c-section it was.

Do I love her to bits?


Would I do it again?


It is absolutely ok to feel how you do about it. It doesn’t mean we love our kids less. We just know that for ourselves not doing it again is the right way to go.

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